February 12, 2011

Blessings in the Midst of Heartache...

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. - James 1:17

Sometimes it takes losing someone or something to really see what is right in front of you.

I am in the middle of miscarrying my 2nd child in five months. I found out I was pregnant on December 17th and was thrilled with knowing that I was given another chance to have a baby. Well on February 3rd I had an ultrasound that resulted in the fact there was no heartbeat. I was devastated! I was having another miscarriage and I didn't know why. But through my questions, another broken heart and disbelief, the Lord met me once again. He has brought comfort and reassures that He is still in control. He has also given me strong Christians to walk through this with. They have cried with me, hugged me, listened to me and spoke truth to me. He is a faithful God even in the darkness!

One of the things that Lord has really shown me through this process is how blessed I am. I have a wonderful husband, who works hard, loves me and loves our kids. I have 3 beautiful children on earth with me and 2 sweet children that I can't wait to meet one day. I have great family support and love. I have a cherished community of friends that love the Lord and me. I have to say I am one blessed lady. My life may seem like the norm, but I don't want to live like it is the norm. I want to live thanking God for every treasure He has given to me.

The Lord has provided me with so much and I have so much to be thankful for. My pain and hurt had caused me to overlook what the Lord has blessed me with. My God is such a faithful God and it is so evident in my life. It is really hard for me to admit that I have taken so much of what the Lord has blessed me with for granted. It is also sad for me to say that it took losing another baby to really grasp what the Lord has blessed me with. The Lord opened my eyes and showed me all the people in my life that love me, that are here for me, that would do anything I asked, that have offered to help out anyway they can. I am so blessed to have so many beautiful people in my life. My heart overflows with thankfulness and love for these people. Yes, this path I must walk is not an easy one, but I would rather walk this path with the people that the Lord has placed in my life then by myself.

So today I want to start living in an awe of what the Lord has blessed me with; I want to take each day and thank the Living God for all the good and perfect gifts He has blessed me with.  I have decided that today is the day that I will cherish every moment the Lord gives me here on earth. I will use my time to honor my Lord by learning how to be a better wife, mother, daughter and friend. My God is such a good God that He deserves all our praises and thanksgiving.

Will you join me today is being thankful for the blessings that the Lord has poured out upon you? Even if you are in the midst of a struggle or a trial, stop looking at all the evil and hurt around you and cast your eyes upon the perfect gifts the Lord has put in your life to walk this through with you.