Don't Wait...

The clock read 11:00pm and I had been in bed for about an hour trying to shut off my brain so I could sleep, but sleep wouldn't come. I felt the soft nudging of the Lord "It's time to deal". I knew what He wanted, but I was ready for sleep, it had been a long day emotionally and physically. However, this was not the first time the Lord had prompted me to sit at His feet and be honest with Him. I was planning on it, I really was, I just was busy with life. Actually the day before I had decided that I was going to the Thursday Night Prayer Service, which I felt like would be a good time to start dealing with my 2nd miscarriage. Well I guess planning on "dealing" wasn't good enough for my Heavenly Father, so I finally rolled out of bed, headed downstairs, grabbed my bible, pen, notebook and ipod. I sat down and said I was going to "deal" on Thursday night. The Lord didn't really say anything so I started writing and after about 3 pages of writing, He started to speak. He met me right where I was and spoke to the areas in my heart that were hurting, He brought comfort, strength and truth.

But the Lord wasn't done...He then called me out on my plan of waiting until Thursday night. It was a gentle spirit that came, but at the same time He was very firm with me. He simply said "you don't need an appointment to enter my presence and I should not have to fit into your schedule." 


Because of Jesus Christ we have a new convent with God. We don't have to wait to be called into His presence we can enter them at anytime; if you really stop to think about that it is a marvelous thing!

Hebrews 4:16 says "Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.


If I would have waited till Thursday I would have missed out on a wonderful, personal, comforting experience with My God. I realized that I didn't need the "perfect" moment for My Father to speak to me and to start to heal me. I am learning that when He calls I need to stop and take time with My Lord. The laundry can wait, the kids can watch a movie, the bathroom can be cleaned tomorrow. All of those things are not life changing, but falling on your knees before the Lord when He calls IS.

This late night happened shortly after my D&C, when my body was starting to heal and all the emotions of what just happened started flooding me. I really started struggling with my miscarriage and what I was feeling. I knew the truth, but the devil was doing a wonderful job at attacking and trying to instill lies whenever he could and I was growing weary of fighting him. I needed to be refreshed, renewed and comforted. During this late night meeting the Lord showed me this verse Look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always - Ps 105:4. Why did I ever think I could wait until that Thursday to meet with my Heavenly Father?

When you are struggling, going through a storm, being attacked by our enemy or are just weary there is no better time to enter the presence of the Lord. We have the authority to enter God's presence at anytime so why wait until church on Sunday or a prayer service on Thursday or a bible study on Wednesday? Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with church. My family and I go every Sunday (we can); joining with other believers to worship and learn about God is much needed in our spiritual walk. What I am saying is we don't have to wait for those special days to enter the presence of the King of Kings, to be comforted, to be renewed, to be restored, to feel loved, and to find truth. He will meet you wherever you are, you just have to have to take the time to meet Him. I can guarantee if you take the time, you will not be disappointed and it will not be a waste.