Walking Through This Life…

One of my favorite songs right now is “This Little Light of Mine” by Addison Road and there is one line from this song that sums up this life pretty well “In this life you will know love & pain, joy & sorrow.” God did not promise us a perfect life, but He did promise He would always be with us. Hebrews 13:5 “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”

After I miscarried the Lord really spoke a strong word to me that I really needed to hear…We are not designed to walk through this life alone! This word took on 2 different meanings in my life.

First meaning…

About 1 week after I miscarried I was still dealing emotionally with the loss of my baby, but at the same time I was trying to get my life and my kids’ lives back to “normal” and let’s just say I was having a really tough time. I felt like my world was just spinning out of control. I was at a place that I just needed peace in my life, but I wasn’t sure how to get it. Then the Lord gave me the word “You are not designed to do this alone!” Life becomes so much harder when we try to do it alone! I begun to seek the Lord and how I was to move on from the miscarriage and as I did He showed up time and time again. During this time He gave me new insight on teaching my kids and He also gave me some ideas on how I could teach them more about Him.  I begin to feel peace in my house and in my life. My kids were sleeping better, they really started engaging in school, I didn’t feel like I was going crazy and I really enjoyed being home with my kids.

The Lord is always there it is just a matter of us asking Him to come in and lead in every area of our lives. Sometimes it is really easy for me to ask God for guidance and direction with the BIG stuff in life, but I have to remember that He wants to guide me even in the little areas too. God has made us to NEED Him! It is not God’s intention to live this life or any part of this life without Him. He wants to be involved in every aspect of our lives, the good, bad & ugly.

Second meaning…

From the time I had first learned that my baby didn’t have a have a heartbeat until I had physically miscarried, I tired so hard to walk through this process alone. I thought it would be so much easier to say “I’m ok,” that way people would leave me alone. Then it all hit me, I was sitting in church and everyone was worshiping our Creator and I couldn’t stop crying. I let my husband that I need to go find someone to pray for me and I had one person in mind. As I walked out of the sanctuary that one person walked right in front of me. I said her name and she came over, gave me a hug and I just cried. She walked me to a room where we could talk and pray. She let me cry and talk and then she prayed. It was the first step of my healing. It was such a blessed time and I was so thankful that she was there. After that moment I knew that I was going to need to let a few people into my life, so they could help me heal and really minister to me.

God created Eve because it was not good for Adam to be alone. God has put people in our lives because it is not good for us to walk through life alone. I was a big mess and it was really hard for me to let people see that, but I knew that I couldn’t walk through this alone. So I had to let my guard down and let some ladies in. I was so glad that I did, God really spoke to me through those ladies and I am so blessed they took the time to minister to me. Through this I really realized that I didn’t have to have it all together, that it was ok for me to be a mess and to let others see that I was a mess. God wants us to be in community where it is ok to let our guard down and really tell someone we are not ok. He wants us to have friends that we can call anytime of day and say we need prayer.  God made other people because it is not good for us to be alone.

If you don’t feel like you are in a community where you can be real, then I challenge you to find friends that will let you be whom you are, failures, hurts, pain and all. No one is perfect and no one will have a perfect life. Everyone will experience “love & pain, joy & sorrow” but you don’t have to go through any of it alone.